i am addicted to a number of television shows. that's right ... i am admitting it. i would like to say that my passion for current events and global causes eradicates any desire i have to participate in the drama that is hollywood and entertainment, like i am just too much of an activist, too busy volunteering and attending protests and writing my congressman to watch the boob tube. but i can't - i can't. i want to know if meredith is going to choose dr. mcdreamy or the vet. i want to find out if abby and luka are going to survive this baby trauma. i want to see who will become america's next ... top ... model. (sidebar: i would also like to know why janet jackson wore casts on both of her perfectly healthy arms during her today show performance. that family is just wierd!)
so what is this obsession all about? why do i emotionally salivate every time i pick up the remote control? i think the answer lies in the reality of the human condition - we want to know and be known. not only do i want to find out what meredith is going to do, i want to know what she is thinking, what she likes to do for fun. we could go shopping and do lunch, lamenting about men and what they do to our hearts. we could laugh about how dark and twisty other people think we are and admit if they only knew how really bad it was, they wouldn't want anything to do with us. even more so, they would be scared.
but i only get thursday nights. for one hour on thursday nights i get to know her a little better. it's sad when the hour is up and i know that i have to wait another week to find out more. it's a reminder that my heart is hungry for connection, even if it is with an imaginary, television character. (so sad.) and then it hits me ... maybe the reason i like this relationship so much is that i don't have to give anything to it. and when i do offer my two cents, it's not like she can hear me (because if she could hear me i think she would listen.) no, this relationship is one where i can just take and not have to offer any of myself. and that, my friends, is the other reality of the human condition - we are selfish. thankfully, i have the opportunity to know the One who is most selfless, who teaches me what it truly means to be in relationship - not for my own pleasure, but for the glory of God.
i have given myself a reprieve about the ambivalence of being an activist that likes tv. i think it has taught me that it is okay to be human. i am allowing myself to truly experience hunger for relationship, and i am learning to accept grace for my selfishness. thanks for being a part of that, meredith. see you thursday.
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"and then it hits me ... maybe the reason i like this relationship so much is that i don't have to give anything to it."
That is truly brilliant! I've long wondered what my facination is as well - and I think maybe you just hit the nail on the head. My selfishness knows no bounds.
I can't understand your fascination with Merideth however...she's an idiot. Izzy, on the other hand, has some depth to her...or maybe it's just that she's hot.
Amen to that, sister!
rick, meredith is cool. and izzy is crazy ... like really messed up, needs a shrink and some meds, lying on a floor for days crazy. not that i wouldn't categorize myself as that crazy at times, but still. she's crazy.
linds-eee
you've got to be kidding me! how can you call narcisistic (sp?), neurotic, shallow, nymphomaniac merideth cool and in the same breath dis izzy?!?!
merideth has absolutely not depth. she's only worried about all things merideth - and can hardly even deal with taking care of her own mother.
izzy, on the other hand, put her career on the line to get her patient a heart - never mind the fact she was infatuated with him...at least it was for someone other than herself. this little game she has started with mcdreamy and the vet just proves that. the perfect situation would be if the boys both teamed up and taught poor little me merideth a lesson. now that would be tv worth watching!
lindsey-i am not even going to address the fact that you are talking, at length, about a show other than friends. what has happened? meredith, izzy, and the rest of what should be called hospital disfunction...does not even compare to the wit and charm of rachel, monica, pheobe, chandler, joey and ross. "no, we don't have your sheep." i digress...i desperately need your help with the video...i tried the other day and got to step 2 and was ready to pull my hair out one strand at a time. call me so we can discuss. okay "princess bubble-yum". "why yes...yes they do...IN PRISON."
mindy
by the way...i do watch greys anatomy...it's a good show. chad just rolls his eyes.
mindy - "don't anger it!" friends will always be the ultimate, quotable, best show that's ever been on tv, sitcom. gray's anatomy is current, however. and i will call you about the video in like 10 minutes.
as for you, rick ... did you read the blog?? of course meredith is selfish! of course she is narcisisstic! of course she is neurotic! she embodies what we all are when we are actually honest with ourselves. and just because she wants to be loved does not make her shallow. just because she wants to be pursued and to be made to feel important by a man doesn't mean she is any of those things. it's what women want, rick. we want the men in our lives to fight for us! and who can deal with their mothers? i can't - can you? i mean, you might be one of those rare ones with a cool mom, but most of us are driven crazy by their mothers on a regular basis - yet another commonality meredith has with the average person (woman.)
izzy risked her career for a man she had never seen outside of a hospital gown. she risked his life - hello, she cut his l-vat! - so that she could have a boyfriend. don't ya think that is a little extreme??
Y'all are cracking me up with the back and forth about the show.
I don't really know who to side with because while Izzy may have risked her career for an almost stranger, she took a chance for someone that was real with her and who loved her - and she had seen him outside of the hospital... once. Well, she saw him in civilian clothes LEAVING the hospital. They at least had a conversation outside of his hospital room!
As for Meredith, she can be an idiot. But at least she's honest about what is going through her head! Can anyone say that they have always made the best decisions and/or always said the right thing? Heck, no! Besides, what normal woman could think straight with McDreamy and McVet both vying for your attention?!? She pretty much has the best job ever right now... ha!
Idiot, idiot, idiot. She know's not picking the best man, and she knows she's going to get hurt again. I understand that you can't help who you fall in love with - I've been there - but only the idiots stay with the person - knowing it's going to turn out badly.
Merideth=Idiot
Izzy - loyal, smart enough to dump alex (is that his name?), hot...and now rich.
No contest.
well, i can say izzy was smart enough to dump alex, although she did have a couple of trists with him after she dumped him. and she is loyal, i will give her that. hot is questionable, and who cares if she is rich - her fiance is DEAD. i am sure she won't care about the money - if i have read her correctly. and we all knew somewhere deep down that mer was going to pick mcdreamy. he's the one she LOVES. and love can make you do some really stupid things. (i just heard a chorus of amen's from across the country...)
Just like everyone else, I knew she would pick mcdreamy. but why?? if only she had us there as friends. We could have talked some sense into her... not that she would have listened. So what are loyal friends (or family members) supposed to do when we see someone making these idiotic decisions?! Meredith can't hear us (as much as we wish she would) but other people can, right? I know they don't always hear us, but I wish they would unclog their ears sometimes.
as frustrating as it can be for those of us on the outside, we have to let people make their own decisions, even if they are self-destructive sometimes. and we have to love them through it - as hard as that can be when we want to hang them up by their toenails! (pardon the old southern expression.) it sucks, but we have no other choice ... it's that or isolate them with chastisement. i have been the one making the dumb decisions before, and the friends i respected and appreciated the most were the ones who lovingly gave me their honest opinion without cramming it down my throat.
Wow - my last comment got deleted. Too harsh??
Sorry.
it's okay ... it was just time for the banter to end.
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